Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Just a quick note..

This looks like heaven.   
As is standard behavior for me at the end of every semester....I gave away all my fucks and allowed my animalistic behaviors take over - in other words, I stayed up all night playing video games and just generally ignoring the world for about a week.  Not to fear though because yesterday I pulled some drastic moves to get my sleep schedule back on track and will follow up today with some social interactions outside of my apartment!  I know, it's crazy.  Classes start up again on Monday and I still have one more paper to write (and about 15 overdue library books for that paper so the sooner I get it done, the sooner I can return the books and stop the fines from becoming more than my tuition).  The plan is to get the paper done this week and today I'm going to head into the office (after a quick trip to Wal-Mart for a pillow that supports my neck because my pillows suck and my neck hurts).  The plan today is to get at least 2 books finished (I think I only need to skim 3 more) and then read an old paper I wrote about hysteria for some ideas (cause the current paper is a historiography on hysteria).

Good news:

  1. Weight has gone down some more so hopefully when I'm ready to start exercising again I won't have gained all the weight back.
  2. I got 2 A's for the semester (and one Incomplete, but I'm writing that paper now and I should get at least a B+ in the class).



I'll leave you with a fun summer game:




Saturday, May 11, 2013

Update

Okay everyone, I know you've been worried because I haven't posted in about 2 weeks.  The mistake I made had me extremely stressed out and I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle it, but thankfully I have amazing friends who helped me get through the stress and kept me on track.

However, I could not deal with the stress of the mistake and the end of the semester while still maintaining the exercise routine that I was creating for myself.  So I said "fuck it" because my mental health is way more important to me than my physical health.  Needless to say, it's been about 2 weeks since I've worked out...and I feel miserable.  I did weigh myself last week and only gained a couple of pounds thankfully, but I do know that when I weigh myself this coming Sunday the weight gain is probably going to be more significant.

In the meantime, I'm just going to do what I want.  I'm giving myself 2 more days to fuck off and be a sloth in all things, but come Monday I am going to start working out again (in some fashion), eating better, and working on that last paper I have to write because if I don't get it done before summer classes start on May 20th I'm probably going to be fucked.

There's a lot of fucks in this post....I wonder if I should have put a NSFW tag?

Fuck it.


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Fuck up

I did a thing.  A very embarrassing, fucked up, mistakey type thing. A thing that could affect my college career permanently by getting me expelled from school.  I didn't do this thing on purpose.  I wasn't hiding it.  I honestly didn't realize that this thing was bad (or at least this bad anyway).  I fucked up big time.  Now I have to face the consequences.  I just hope it's a "crisis averted, lesson learned" type consequence and I can go on with my life never having to speak of this stupid, embarrassing thing again.

Seriously.  I feel like a total idiot for not realizing this was a really big, bad thing.

*sigh*

Needless to say, I didn't work out today as I was too stressed.  I also ate kinda bad and I'm not sure I'm going to feel up to working out tomorrow.  I'll get back on the horse, it's just gonna take me a little bit.