Sunday, December 30, 2012

The Numbers Never Lie

I'm sitting here crying.  Why?  Because I just got off my ass and did something I'd been meaning to do for awhile...dust off my old The Complete Idiot's Guide to Numerology.  I knew that things in my life were going to change, I just wasn't sure what (numerological) year I was getting ready to enter in 2013.  So I looked it up cause I was pretty sure that I was due for a year full of beginnings - especially after the heaviness of 2012.

I'm crying because without realizing it I am looking at the last two days of a 9 Personal Year.  What is a 9 Personal Year you ask?  It's a year of completion, release, forgiveness, and transformation; a quieter year, a time to rest, but can be busy in the first half.  Yeah, I knew this was a 9 year.  All that heavy depression and loneliness I was feeling and talking to my therapist about.  I didn't have a very good 9 year cycle this last time, I mean it started out great...I lost 50 pounds and quit smoking...but after that, I didn't take care of myself and it piled up on me in the last year.  I spent 2012 looking for release of all this negativity and a way to forgive myself for everything.

It's the caution box next to the 9 Personal Year in the book that actually caused the tears.  It says "CAUTION: Sometimes, the 9 Personal Year can be emotional, because you're letting go of the old so the new can come in.  For others, the 9 year is a transformational year:  A large piece of their life story is healed or released, and with it, an end occurs."  Nailed it.

Letting go of the old so the new can come in.  
A large piece of their story is healed or released.

In 2 days I start my next 1 Personal Year.  A 1 year is an active year.  It is a time of new beginnings and planting seeds.  It is a time for me to focus on myself and, more than any other year, this is a time for me to become acquainted with the needs of my self.  I plan on having a pretty epic 1 year...and then following it up with an aware and epic 9 year cycle.

I'm hoping to journal more in 2013, either here or in my actual paper journal (omg, how shocking!).  Here's to a great year everyone!


Sunday, December 23, 2012

Just some feminist graphics I have on my computer







I found this while Stumbling today and I didn't want to lose it.
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“A Woman Should Have” – by Pamela Redmond Satran

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she’s content to leave behind….
a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to
retelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …
a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that she can’t change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that her childhood may not have been perfect…but its over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to live alone… even if she doesn't like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can’t,
and why she shouldn't take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
where to go…
be it to her best friend’s kitchen table…
or a charming inn in the woods…
when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…

Monday, December 10, 2012

It's December, Bitches

And I mean that in the most nicest way possible.  Promise.

November's 30 day challenge went well enough.  I had to shave my pits a couple of days early because my B.O. stink level was reaching critical mass for my sensitive nostrils.  I still haven't shaved my legs though.  December's 30 day challenge took some more thought.  I wanted to continue the success streak but I also wanted to increase the challenge level.  It was down to not drinking any soda for 30 days or not eating pizza for 30 days.  Both thoughts gave me anxiety attacks so I realized I had to rethink the challenge.  What I ended up being comfortable with was the no eating pizza for 30 days - this included ordering in, eating out, buying frozen, calzones, and pizza rolls.  Yeah, I set myself up for failure.  Good thing I realized this before December rolled around.  What I actually ended up deciding on as my December 30 day challenge is not actually paying for pizza (this is limited to going out to eat and paying for it myself and ordering in).  This particular challenge will allow me to succeed because it doesn't limit my frozen pizza intake (which is good and significantly lowered the anxiety levels).

I think January's challenge will be the no soda thing.  I'm going to have to start weaning myself now...I think this may be cause to increase my visits to the therapist.

Also, I've already figured out a great New Year's resolution:

Start the year with an empty jar and fill it with notes about good things that happen.  On the following New Year's Eve, empty it and see what awesome stuff happened that year!

Anywho, hope you have a great December.  Oods are I won't be back until next month...sorry I suck at blogging but feel free to stop by for a cup of tea and a chat.  I have tons to say!